In 6 days, classes will officially end, finals will begin, and my first year of college will come to a close. In these past few days, I’ve been doing a lot of reflecting, on how the start to my next four years has turned out. To be honest, there have been many downs, especially in my first semester. But for all those down, amazing, fantastic, wonderful ups have occurred that have made those seem like miniscule specks of the grand picture of my freshman year. With Greek Awards Ball having finished only a few hours ago and even more events to come up in these last few weeks, I’m just starting to break through the surface of what I have gotten myself into when I joined the brotherhood of Phi Mu Delta.
So far, some of my best memories have been made with my fellow brothers, be it the great bonding experience of our retreat, or the celebration of winning chapter of the year (even though I wasn’t there when we got it). All those memories stick out, along with countless others from outside of PMD such as attending Climb where I made so many new connections with other members of the FSL community as well as learned how to improve our community and be a leader. Or just getting the motivation and drive to become involved more in the UVM community.
I am so proud and honored to call the men of Nu Gamma chapter my brothers. All of them, be they senior or first year, are some of the greatest men that I have met so far on this college campus. They not only serve as a great support system when needed, knowing how put a smile on my face even if I’m having the worst day imaginable, or just allowing me to come out of my shell and be myself, appreciating and embracing it for all that it’s worth. I joined in hopes of finding a brotherhood like the one a had at summer camp, and I think…no I KNOW that everyone of my brothers has done that and more.
Like said already, being a part of PMD has allowed me to be who I truly am without fear or ridicule or judgment. Coming to college, my goal was to be myself and not let the fear of social rejection that I had in high school keep me down. But doing that is harder than it looks. So I just retreated into the shell of my dorm room, with the occasional tiny peek out into the light. Now, that shell is gone and hopefully never coming back, because I know that I have a group of brothers who appreciate me for me. I don’t need to be someone different to fit in, or some stereotype to fit what they expect of me. I can be myself.
So I know this all sounds sentimental, like something that one might hear more from a senior about to put away the joys of college and put on their big real world pants, but all this sentimental stuff, that’s the fuel that keeps me going, the fuel that keeps me passionate about being a part of this great organization. And I know that from here, the experience can only get better (hopefully…you never know) and my love for this fraternity and all the men in it will grow. Looking back now, at the first checkpoint on the long hike through the next four years, I have little regrets. There are some that are still there, but they’re the ones that probably were out of my control. In terms of the actions that I personally took and the choices that I made, no regrets whatsoever. And of all these actions, I have no regrets about getting involved and becoming a brother of Phi Mu Delta. Because this organization, and all the brothers in it, will be there through it all.
Don’t Forget To Stay Awesome,